I can die happy now!.....I saw Jeremy Camp in concert on Sunday night. It was more amazing than I could have imagined. He's not a performer, he's a worship leader. He played at the Irvine Verizon center; open skies, mountains all around, the city lights below. My heart and all of my being was communing with my Maker. What a glimpse of Heaven! He doesn't just sing, he preaches too, tearfully pouring out his heart to us, about how his wife died, how God has stayed faithful to him, how He has blessed him Beyond Measure. After sharing his testimony, he shared the Gospel and offered up an altar call. What an amazing man whose heart is completely sold out to the Lord. I can't stop listening to his cd.

Last Tuesday, I felt very far from the Lord. I have come alongside a friend who is finding her way back to the Lord, and I feel that the devil was attacking me so that he could get two birds with one stone. We went out onto the beach and sang our hearts out to the Lord of All Creation. After we had a half hour prayer session. Something was distracting me. I didn't feel in the presence of God. I felt that he was so far away that even if I mustered up all of my might I could not reach him. I prayed, I cried, I even yelled at him, my bitterness hardening my heart. I drove my friend home, questioning him, almost shamefully cursing him. After dropping her off, I listened to Christian music on the ride home. I can't remember which songs played, but I felt the Lord speaking to me. By the time I got back to my dorm I realized that there was nothing more in the world I wanted than him. I had considered how life would be without Him, and realized that He is my everything. I pondered that all week. When I heard Jeremy sing "Give me Jesus," a song I had never heard before, I felt like the Lord was singing it to me through Jeremy. Here are a few lines:

Give me Jesus
You can have all this world
Just give me jesus

When I come to die
Give me jesus

He sang it while all-out balling on stage. He had so much passion in his voice.

Tempted, I wanted to go up and shake his hand, maybe get a cd signed. But, then I realized that this whole celebrity infatuation thing is exactly what I want to change about Hollywood. I also realized that I've got all of eternity to not only shake his hand, but worship alongside him. Isn't that WAY better! :)